Fear can be so gripping. When it strikes, the blood pressure rises. The stomach knots up. A sense of fright and flight takes over. The need to run becomes intense. There is the constant worry of a knock at the door. Finding oneself walking towards the window and glancing out of the lace curtains. Fear muddles our thinking. It makes us believe the lies we are trying to refute. It causes doubt. It makes us anxious.
Yes, fear is very unhealthy. Where do you turn when you’re sitting there with your stomach churning and your face becoming flushed at the mere thought of the circumstances you may be facing….?
2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (KJV)
I know this. I understand this. Yet the fear still over powers me. I look some more…..
Hebrews 13:6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me. (KJV)
Psalm 118:6 The LORD is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? (KJV)
Still the fear encompasses me round about. I feel it on my skin. I feel it in my heart. I feel it in my stomach. This fear is just of one person. One person that I GAVE the power to put me down. Make me tremble. Yet, even knowing the lies and hearing the threats. The fear is overwhelming to me. I find no comfort in those things around me nor do I find peace or comfort offered to me. There is no peace of mind to be had.
I am trying, purposing in my heart to cling to the promises that have been given to me. Only there can I find true peace and protection. Only there can I see the lies for what they truly are….I just haven’t been able to see them yet.
Psalm 56:4 In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me. (KJV)
Deuteronomy 3:22 Ye shall not fear them: for the LORD your God he shall fight for you. (KJV)
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD they God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. (KJV)
Matthew 10:31 Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. (KJV)
Luke 12:7 But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows. (KJV)
I know what the fears are……due to personal reasons I will not be listing them at this time. But I think my biggest fear….is if God says No………God has said No to me before…..but I didn’t have as much to loose as I do now. Can I give it all to HIM and accept His will? I know that I can. I also know the pain that it will involve.
I know that the reassurance I seek will be given to me by Him….but the fear is still there……
I do know that I must surrender the fear and take up the spirit of power and love and a sound mind. I know I must be prepared for what God’s will is going to be…….It just may take me awhile.